unfold one after the other

It's said that men will always be tested by God and everything has karma either from previous-life or our past doings. Well if that is true ( especially for the previous-life part), how many of us actually had did enough good deeds to last for 2 lifetimes....

Life chapters unfold one after the other. 

While that is suppose to be the normal case, I would greatly appreciate it if there are more interchanges between the good and the bad. 

Let's see how had it been for the past couple of years which I had been away from this blog of mine~

I stayed in Ipoh for bout a year...passed a couple of papers I attempted. Little enjoyment with limited friends and entertainment. Lucky to have true friends while I'm back, highly appreciated!! Thanks to Kok Mun, Khai Whum, Andrew Foo and occasionally Kok Meng.

Finally 26 December 2011, arrived at Gatwick Airport, London. Life has been rocky since. Downs more than Ups. I had been lonely before in life but it had never been this bad. Lucky enough to know quite a few good people but living in London is anything but certainty.

Well, there goes the new chapter. 

A new chapter is on its way! The unfold of the year 2013 & the Year of Snake! Suppose to be a Good Year for all Dragons!! Hope this is true for all of us!!

night picnic

WOW!!! I would never had thought that I could actually organize something like

NIGHT PICNIC!!!

In IPOH!!!!

Certainly a night to remember...haha..

Something I didn't do even when I'm in KL,

had tried steamboat,karaoke (not at night though),BBQ,

all alcohol nights..

but certainly never night picnic...LOL...

oppss...Did i mentioned,

it was from 10something (pm) till bout 12am...

hehe...more to something like

late night...wuahahaha!!!!

anyhow...it was an awesome night..

too bad,didn't actually snap any pics..

it would had been an even better night with some sweet souvenir =D

next time next time =)

friends in the event: chin kok mun and chan khai whum =)

post after months

Gosh...finally another post after a few months,

guess i had been pretty lazy posting~~ =P hahaha

Guess i'm just gonna do some recap here..

Life is in ipoh is just as boring as it can be....

Bet most friends in KL can't even imagine me being at home 95% of the time!!!

and i mean 95%!!!! maybe even more...LOL...

SUPER RARE night-time yumcha,

NO karaoke sessions (not that i never get invitations for it, but most of the dudes there are not-known to me....so lacking of mood)

maybe its just my own fault....

PRETTY RARE movie session,

lucky for me...Khai Whum is back in town..

Finally a mate for movies apart from my Dad...LMAO~~

Not to say,watching movie with dad is no fun...

Watching movie with him is cool, but sometimes friends might just be a better suit...

Too bad Jesmin isn't in town most of the time though...

She would have been the best movie,yumcha,PAKTO,karaoke mate ever =P

hahahahahahhahahahahaah~~~

Lucky for me, I have a mate for snooker.....

Ain't the sport that I excel-in but at least

there is something for me apart from staying at home all the time.... =)

Think this is something i should be happy for at least =P hehe...

Pretty thankful that this fella here is in town =D

Just gotta start to try hooking up with some younger dudes sooner or later,

if not....This is gonna spell for Loneliness...

~OucH~

>.<

Long time~

Seriously have been a long long time since i last update this fella (blog) her...6 months plus plus!!!

Gonna start with a little update of how things been running and happening;

My relationship with Baby (Jesmin) is still running strong and well =)

This is one good thing =)

Went to Langkawi as our first trip from 1st Oct 2010-3rd Oct 2010 =)

Been back to Ipoh for more than half a year,

pretty much spending time like a lazy pig doing the same old thing daily...

Ouch...I'm such an F**K-Up Lazy-Ass dude...sigh....

Back in Ipoh,

I can sum up everyday by

sleep, eat, play basketball, "work" for my dad, a little bit of drinking session, study and Jesmin

Ouch...Really feel that I'm wasting my life =(

Cherish =)

My very first dinner

My very first dinner with her

the same day I confessed,

the same day She accepted me into her life =)

5th April 2010

My very first GIRLFRIEND =)

Had a very fine dinner at

Euro Deli

We were actually quite lucky because the place wasn't crowded

and there were actually a lot of tables available for us to choose =)

A NICE, QUIET AND PEACEFUL ENVIRONMENT TOGETHER WITH THE GIRL I LOVE

What more can I ask

Its one of the best all-time dinner =)

p.s. special thanks to all that gave us (especially the jimui-s gang, brothers and the close friends) the precious blessings and to people that gave me some ideas for dining choices

special thanks to pik hun, her sister, pik chew, my cousin timothy and his girlfriend, audrey...would never had found the place if its not because of y'all...

thanks thanks thanks so so so much....

so lucky to have you guys around =)

thanks be to Lord

Jesmin, we are so gonna spend so much time together =)

Love You!!!! Dear

My big day

5th April!!!!

Now this is a day to remember,

Its the day I confess to the girl I really wish to spend the rest of my life

living with her,

love her,

caring for her!!

Honestly, its quite scary confessing and its quite an experience...

but once is already more than enough,

don't ever hope to confess to another anymore

while

the next time i ever ask her of something will

hopefully be something like

putting a ring around her finger =)

May we be together forever and ever,

loving each other stronger than ever as everyday pass

I love You, My Dear :*

things meant to be

Just had a hellish bomb dropped onto me yesterday...

Some sort of expected truth that I wouldn't want be made known of...

Finally SHE said it out,

somehow I ain't angry or hate (or whatever ill with) her... (a couple of friend of mine said I should though..lol)

[I'm sorry, I just don't have the will to get mad~~]

more than that, the first thing that came to my mind is that,

I ain't gonna give up yet and

plan to stay persistence while hoping it will turn out well for her (& hope for me too)

Whatever happens, Whatever the outcome is,

Whatever she ever does,

if there is something I would like,

It would be with the thought that as long as she is happy,

thats just about all I hope for..

I will be more than happy for you, if You found a guy that is worth your love =)

as for my current self, I wonder how things is gonna turnout for me now...

think the current step would be...

STUDIES + CAREER

gonna finish the Advance Diploma by April,

then head to UK..

then....

just gonna see how the future awaits....

LOVE!!??

thats gonna be a long-term question mark...

I still love you a lot...

I AIN"T a saint or a really good man, but thats just the thing in my head now

wonder whether You ever read my blog,dear

many says; love is blind while at the same time blinds everyone with it~~

lol...this is just so TRUE,I guess

a pretty good acca haul

=) This post don't actually about me that much but more about all the close buds and friends around me that took ACCA last December, especially the close ones and She =)

From my contact list, many had passed, though maybe not all the subject

but at least, y'all prove yourself that ACCA is not unbeatable and that,

y'all one hell of a gang to knock ACCA down =)

As for those that didn't get it through this time...

Work Hard for the Upcoming Seating =)

Chances are still there, grab it and make it good once and for all =D

Congrats, dear, ji-muis , bros, and all of you out there =)

Something well-confirmed again =)

Actually this post came-in a bit late here....

headed to Penang to meet my cousins and aunts on the first day of Chinese New Year,

nothing really special happened throughout the day,

till something nice to come into confirmation at night

In the night, I went out with my uncle and a couple of cousins together with one of their GF..

and there goes, we end up talking bout loads of stuff....

and if there is one thing that catch my attention to confirm some stuff,

its this~~

the hell load of places my uncle and my couz' GF talked about~~

hehe....

the first and only thing that came to my mind is that,

dear,I would really love to go to all these places with you =)

they spoke of creepy places, nice place and all sort of places

and

you are the next thing that came into my mind =)

somehow,it really do re-confirm my feelings for you....

I really do mean my feelings for you =)

a very firm confirmation for myself again

this is LA Disneys Haunted Mansion =)

one of the nice place they mentioned =)

Lacking wish!?

Can actually not say that wishes are ever not-enough or enough,

but,

its just lacking without a wish from u,dear =(

that sting quite a bit...

Had seriously hope for a wish from you,

it never seem to be complete without one from you....

Well....there goes my incomplete Chinese New Year (and Valentine) wish list =(

sigh~

Misery!!!!

OMG...seriously,the right side of my head feels like its gonna burst d...

Have been 2 damn days,

I have been having headache....sigh...

Hope that by the sleep I'm getting tonight,

my misery is gonna end =S

However this is only the first half of the misery,,,

Second part is playing a pretty huge part....

My mind have not been anywhere near sane these days....

The Mind....It just seems to be so much harder to focus onto something,

and that it keeps on wander off to the same old place~~

Thats something Me too believes its hard to move away from....

LOVE is pretty similar to something I love pretty much....

DARK CHOCOLATE = Sweet but at the same time Bitter =S

bad mind at the bad time

My mind have been pretty much wondering all the time these days~~

The best part is that its been wondering even through the inappropriate times,

when I drive,when I cross the road

Now this 2 are the terrible moments for it to wander,especially away from the good parts.....

I was on my way driving to the cyber cafe....

And guess what...

nearly encounter an accident (my fault this time)

nearly hit a motorcyclist....Zzzzzz.....

then,after parking the car...

while trying to cross the road.....

maybe I just didn't read the road well enough,

I nearly end-up getting bashed by a car~~~

OMG......Its really hard to just stay sane with my mind being so off-wandering....

Dear....really miss you a lot.....

Think I still have some life in me worthy to live for the Guy-Up-There..

Gonna try to be more sane living my life,

there are still plenty of things that I gotta do and achieve,

Life is Full with Sweet, Sour, Bitter

Maybe now its just the turn of Bitter and Sour running the show....

TAHAN.....

SERIOUSLY HOPE THAT SWEET IS ON ITS WAY FAST!!!!!!!!

Girls Need To Realize: WRITTEN BY A GUY :)

This is something a friend of mine mailed to me and i so-so agree to it....

This is for all the girls

p.s. to My Dear,I didn't change the words...so its abit 'not so polite' but everything in the post is pretty much what i had in mind too

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS<>

but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.That it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you!dont 'feel bad'We enjoy doing it.It's expected.

Smile and say 'thank you.

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need towear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown,Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.It's boring, and we don't care.

You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; )

Girls, I cannot stress this enough:

if you aren't being treated right by a guy,

dont wait for him to change!!!!!

Ditch his sorry butt,

disgrace to the male population

and find someone who will treat you with utter respect

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

As Much As I Love Her

To be honest,I wonder how many could stand reading this post till the end...Its pretty much a situation I'm currently in and....Pretty much a havoc and is a kind of love-dilemma thing.....sigh....Its pretty much like,me being kind-of overly possessive and even jealous this time around with her...sigh...Not really my usual self...sigh....i asked some friends about it,and they tell me "its like that de, when you love someone so much and dearly, even small things that they do affects you significantly"

Honestly, really hope to revert back to my previous self where the basic policy I have is "It matters nothing other than she being happy,just going to be there and be supportive"...

Love really is so damn freaking complicated and influential eh....

Seriously,very scare that i might scare or irritate her...sigh....

Only solution left is pretty much trying to change for the better or maybe a bit more of my old self...sigh...someone gives me some help and opinion here..please..

a high jump

I just thought I had a really good high jump and being able to get in the groove after all the ups and downs we had throughout the years....

We went up before,

then,

We came down before,

now just when I thought we have the chemistry and again in ups,

We gotta take a step down again...

seriously a terrible stab...

ahhh.....seriously painful...

YET and HOWEVER,

my dear,

I really do understand that maybe our leap is a bit too huge,

and that, maybe things would be better if we take it slow and easy......

p.s. dear...I wonder if you would read this post, if you did....

I would like you to know that I didn't get angry at how things is making its turn now...

but, I still love you as I always do...and that,

let us use all the time that we have and I will be waiting for you

love dear..muakxx

huggies =)

weird...maybe not so much

Hm....To be honest,I really do miss her all the time...But i wonder whether its weird here or maybe its just not so weird...I actually watched a movie and listened to some very sweet and soft love songs today....And this is actually making me miss her more than ever....

Movies and Songs really do have their magic sometimes eh...

Anyone that haven't watch this movie should go download it

GHOST OF GIRLFRIENDS PAST

its so damn nice,

the best part is that;

It actually remind myself to appreciate her more, well she is pretty much the best possible girl that I could ever fall for.....

!!NO REGRETS!!

I wonder if I'm getting all too emotional and stuff....

There is this song that i had loved for bout 11years and i actually found it today

L-O-V-E by Nat King Cole

Man, y'all should try these 2, especially if you are in love...It would just suits your feelings so damn nicely....

Love you, dear :*

Ah.....Missing you so badly (but i actually just finish talking with you on the phone)

=)

belated birthday post

Wooo..This post is quite well about 11 days late...lol...Guess there would be a few people that might visit this blog of mine :)

To be honest,It was a full day from head to toe enjoyment...

I sang, I jump, I snap, I laugh, I smile, I enjoyed, I played,

and the greatest thing is that

My Dream Came True,

since young, I always wished that my closest friends would celebrate my birthday with me one day,

what more....This is my 21st...Its so totally awesome =)

Its a present only second to something I received from someone :)

(don't be mistaken..what I received is not something that money can buy)

Everything just came by so nicely....except for the final closing...That is the only setback...

Lets see, first stop is the REDBOX in The Curve...I think I sang about near 5hours...lol...

had never sing for such a long time before at all,

then...Dinner at Tony Romas (The Curve)...

All was good up till then...

There might just be a bit of a setback in the end of it...But,

sometimes it might just be good to disregard it, and take it as a Lesson to Learn :)

learn the word PUNCTUALITY :)

Overall....It have been an awesome night with 'almost' all the closest pals in the crowded,

would have hope a couple more to appeared,

xiang & carmen & you yang (y'all need to come next year)

Thanks to all that threw the party for me,

thanks~

cheng siong,cheow ling,cheng ying,pik hun,cui wah,joane,ah fai

love y'all..

mayb god bless all of us :)

loads of them bt stil lonely!!!???

To be honest, I have loads of friends a.k.a brothers and sisters...Many of which that really cares for me and would always gather for a drink & chat....There is even a good group of friends of mine that would even spend time to chat with me any time if I ever need them by my side or whenever I need any support....I'm even chatting daily with the girl of my life nowadays (p.s I'm still in single life mode)

But...Recently...I really really do feel very lonely at times, its like I have the world and yet I just don't really have anyone beside me....Maybe I do have them checking on my back all the time,I think they would....Really do believe so =) I really love you guys and girls =) it would have been real tough to find another group of friends I have currently =)

Or maybe the problems come from me myself....Pretty much an extrovert that likes to play and joke around with most of everybody but trying to force myself to stay at home all the time,basically forcing myself to live a life of an introvert.....

Sigh...Seriously hate this feeling of being lonesome and I'm so not going to be an Introvert!!!

So not me!! =)

its weird weird

Its a totally good morning :) this few days, I think I can say that it is very very pleasant and yet very very hard to pass through....Weird eh...Guess life is always full with suspense...every morning is like a torture and yet when it is at late night,I would like morning to come as soon as possible...Not that I want to grow old so soon....Who wants that anyway :)

I don't like to sms or message anyone at the wrong time,just in case the other party is busy on something and yet,every morning...I would like to message her so much or receive a sms from her...Its like a total torturing process but I'm kinda happy being in it @@

Totally unexplainable....Totally out of my mind...A happy torture chamber :P haha =)