As Much As I Love Her

To be honest,I wonder how many could stand reading this post till the end...Its pretty much a situation I'm currently in and....Pretty much a havoc and is a kind of love-dilemma thing.....sigh....Its pretty much like,me being kind-of overly possessive and even jealous this time around with her...sigh...Not really my usual self...sigh....i asked some friends about it,and they tell me "its like that de, when you love someone so much and dearly, even small things that they do affects you significantly"

Honestly, really hope to revert back to my previous self where the basic policy I have is "It matters nothing other than she being happy,just going to be there and be supportive"...

Love really is so damn freaking complicated and influential eh....

Seriously,very scare that i might scare or irritate her...sigh....

Only solution left is pretty much trying to change for the better or maybe a bit more of my old self...sigh...someone gives me some help and opinion here..please..

a high jump

I just thought I had a really good high jump and being able to get in the groove after all the ups and downs we had throughout the years....

We went up before,

then,

We came down before,

now just when I thought we have the chemistry and again in ups,

We gotta take a step down again...

seriously a terrible stab...

ahhh.....seriously painful...

YET and HOWEVER,

my dear,

I really do understand that maybe our leap is a bit too huge,

and that, maybe things would be better if we take it slow and easy......

p.s. dear...I wonder if you would read this post, if you did....

I would like you to know that I didn't get angry at how things is making its turn now...

but, I still love you as I always do...and that,

let us use all the time that we have and I will be waiting for you

love dear..muakxx

huggies =)

weird...maybe not so much

Hm....To be honest,I really do miss her all the time...But i wonder whether its weird here or maybe its just not so weird...I actually watched a movie and listened to some very sweet and soft love songs today....And this is actually making me miss her more than ever....

Movies and Songs really do have their magic sometimes eh...

Anyone that haven't watch this movie should go download it

GHOST OF GIRLFRIENDS PAST

its so damn nice,

the best part is that;

It actually remind myself to appreciate her more, well she is pretty much the best possible girl that I could ever fall for.....

!!NO REGRETS!!

I wonder if I'm getting all too emotional and stuff....

There is this song that i had loved for bout 11years and i actually found it today

L-O-V-E by Nat King Cole

Man, y'all should try these 2, especially if you are in love...It would just suits your feelings so damn nicely....

Love you, dear :*

Ah.....Missing you so badly (but i actually just finish talking with you on the phone)

=)

belated birthday post

Wooo..This post is quite well about 11 days late...lol...Guess there would be a few people that might visit this blog of mine :)

To be honest,It was a full day from head to toe enjoyment...

I sang, I jump, I snap, I laugh, I smile, I enjoyed, I played,

and the greatest thing is that

My Dream Came True,

since young, I always wished that my closest friends would celebrate my birthday with me one day,

what more....This is my 21st...Its so totally awesome =)

Its a present only second to something I received from someone :)

(don't be mistaken..what I received is not something that money can buy)

Everything just came by so nicely....except for the final closing...That is the only setback...

Lets see, first stop is the REDBOX in The Curve...I think I sang about near 5hours...lol...

had never sing for such a long time before at all,

then...Dinner at Tony Romas (The Curve)...

All was good up till then...

There might just be a bit of a setback in the end of it...But,

sometimes it might just be good to disregard it, and take it as a Lesson to Learn :)

learn the word PUNCTUALITY :)

Overall....It have been an awesome night with 'almost' all the closest pals in the crowded,

would have hope a couple more to appeared,

xiang & carmen & you yang (y'all need to come next year)

Thanks to all that threw the party for me,

thanks~

cheng siong,cheow ling,cheng ying,pik hun,cui wah,joane,ah fai

love y'all..

mayb god bless all of us :)

loads of them bt stil lonely!!!???

To be honest, I have loads of friends a.k.a brothers and sisters...Many of which that really cares for me and would always gather for a drink & chat....There is even a good group of friends of mine that would even spend time to chat with me any time if I ever need them by my side or whenever I need any support....I'm even chatting daily with the girl of my life nowadays (p.s I'm still in single life mode)

But...Recently...I really really do feel very lonely at times, its like I have the world and yet I just don't really have anyone beside me....Maybe I do have them checking on my back all the time,I think they would....Really do believe so =) I really love you guys and girls =) it would have been real tough to find another group of friends I have currently =)

Or maybe the problems come from me myself....Pretty much an extrovert that likes to play and joke around with most of everybody but trying to force myself to stay at home all the time,basically forcing myself to live a life of an introvert.....

Sigh...Seriously hate this feeling of being lonesome and I'm so not going to be an Introvert!!!

So not me!! =)

its weird weird

Its a totally good morning :) this few days, I think I can say that it is very very pleasant and yet very very hard to pass through....Weird eh...Guess life is always full with suspense...every morning is like a torture and yet when it is at late night,I would like morning to come as soon as possible...Not that I want to grow old so soon....Who wants that anyway :)

I don't like to sms or message anyone at the wrong time,just in case the other party is busy on something and yet,every morning...I would like to message her so much or receive a sms from her...Its like a total torturing process but I'm kinda happy being in it @@

Totally unexplainable....Totally out of my mind...A happy torture chamber :P haha =)

all wen bac to the starting point

If there is one thing that can uplift the word ABSURD to the utmost....I think its LOVE..The word logic can never really link to it... :P

I don't think many would find it pretty surprise especially when you had found THE ONE you believe you would want to spend the rest of your life to be with,of cause with the condition you are really sincere to the other party =)

I had liked a girl previously (years back)...One whom I really loved a lot,basically more than any one I had ever loved =) however,everything didn't really work the way i wanted...

As time passes,I actually tried to go for other girls...

Thinking that I would be able to find someone-else that would actually be able to take her place....

Thinking that,maybe she isn't my miss right...Thinking that,why let yourself down because of one girl....

Thinking that,whether she would be my girl or not,life still need to go on....

But however I end up going out with other girl,I still end up missing her the most....Have not been daring enough to say this in front of anybody,partially to convince/lie to (even) myself....Guess I'm really not that good of a liar any more,or maybe I just can't live in a love life that have me lying in it...End up the girl that I have always loved the most remains as the girl that I will always love and stay in the place where she had always occupies in me :)

However,as for now....everything is still on a hold....I will be patience and work real hard in every aspect because I would really want to give the best that life can give to a person to her XD

MY DEAR....Really really love you very much =)

p.s To all that read this post...I know you all may find it hard to believe that I wrote all these, but this is a post where every word is just as true as you read it =)