As Much As I Love Her

To be honest,I wonder how many could stand reading this post till the end...Its pretty much a situation I'm currently in and....Pretty much a havoc and is a kind of love-dilemma thing.....sigh....Its pretty much like,me being kind-of overly possessive and even jealous this time around with her...sigh...Not really my usual self...sigh....i asked some friends about it,and they tell me "its like that de, when you love someone so much and dearly, even small things that they do affects you significantly"

Honestly, really hope to revert back to my previous self where the basic policy I have is "It matters nothing other than she being happy,just going to be there and be supportive"...

Love really is so damn freaking complicated and influential eh....

Seriously,very scare that i might scare or irritate her...sigh....

Only solution left is pretty much trying to change for the better or maybe a bit more of my old self...sigh...someone gives me some help and opinion here..please..

a high jump

I just thought I had a really good high jump and being able to get in the groove after all the ups and downs we had throughout the years....

We went up before,

then,

We came down before,

now just when I thought we have the chemistry and again in ups,

We gotta take a step down again...

seriously a terrible stab...

ahhh.....seriously painful...

YET and HOWEVER,

my dear,

I really do understand that maybe our leap is a bit too huge,

and that, maybe things would be better if we take it slow and easy......

p.s. dear...I wonder if you would read this post, if you did....

I would like you to know that I didn't get angry at how things is making its turn now...

but, I still love you as I always do...and that,

let us use all the time that we have and I will be waiting for you

love dear..muakxx

huggies =)